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Tuesday, July 7, 2009
Obliged..
Hey all..
How are you..
Im not fine, thank you..
Been feeling "out-of-it" for the last few days..
But i feel obliged to blog..
I dunno why..
Everytime will feel this "obliging" feeling that i must do..
So, why am i not fine??
I haven't been fine since last friday..
I hhave to keep on keeping a facade in front of people..
Pretending im ok and im happy..
But deep down.. Well, im not..
Oh, and remember i told about the badminton competition?
My partner and me get thru to the finals third and fourth placing..
That means we are gonna play on 25th July to decide who gets 3rd and 4th..
Maybe luck was on our side..
We never train before but managed to get this far..
Maybe if we put in little effort to rain, we could go to the Finals for 1st and 2nd placing..
It's ok.. there's always another year..
On the day of the competition, i was very sleepy.. Didnt sleep the nite before..
Just thinking..
Thinking bout the present, the future and abit on the past..
On another side, i think that sunny day was the last day i get to see him..
He's going in ns very very soon..
I happen to know alot of things..
But i dunno whether it's true..
In front of him and his friends, i act uninterested and keep myself out of the conversations they had.. Usually, i will just observe and keep quiet.. But i dunno why, that particular day, i felt like going up to him and confessing..
It's a very strange and unknown feeling..
There they are, talking about all the stuff that i barely knew and i was trying hard not to intervene..
During the trip home, i could barely hold back my tears..But i did not cry at all..
I dunno why..
As i reached my stop, i turned to him and say a quiet goodbye.
He responded for awhile and then continue conversing with the rest..
Thru the window, i see him for the last time.. And i alighted..
Once alighted, feeling of sadness come over me..
On how i was a coward to tell him the truth..
and how much longer should i keep the feelings a secret..
Maybe once he knew my love for him, it will be too late..
But watever happen, i believe in FATE..
If he has found his happiness, i will be happy for him.. Though i will be heartbroken.. But doesn't mean you love someone, you need to be with him..
YES... I LOVE HIM... I LOVE A... But he may never know...
Ok.. Enuff of the sad side..
Now, i will turn my attention to my favourite footballer.. Michael Owen..
Well, now he had joined Man U..
I can't comment anything..
I support him wherever he go..
But the bad thing is that, i can't criticise Man U now..
Since Owen is also part of Man U..
Faris should be happy as he can no longer hear me talk bad things bout Man U.. Haha..
Some people called Owen names and says all the bad things..
I just switched off my ears when i hear them..
Even my stepfather disagree and criticise Owen..
But i have faith in Owen..
He will do good wherever he go..
You just have to give him a chance to prove it..
Ok la.. Need to go.. Working tmr..
Quote to share : Love is like a landscape which doth stand
Smooth at a distance, rough at hand.
(Robert Hegge, On Love, reported in Bartlett's Familiar Quotations, 10th ed. (1919).)
Take care all..
Stay happy and healthy always..
Ain
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